God is so mysterious....

I had a really awful week this week.   Life just seemed to gang up on me and deal me a bunch of sucker punches one after the other and just wouldn't give in until I was down for the count.  I did give in.  I mentally had had it with life.  I hit a low that I haven't hit in a long time.  I was worried for myself, so worried that I started searching for medical problems for what I was feeling.  (Within an hour, I had determined that I had ptsd, ocd, gad, sad, pmdd, ms, menopause, cancer, and suicidal depression.)  I was ready to crawl into bed and let life pass me by until one day I just slip away and no one would notice I was gone.  I figured that when God handed out the story that would be my life that He forgot where there is a happy ending, that my life had no happiness.  That somehow happiness and good things  were meant for everyone else, and my life was always going to be one big ball of chaos and turmoil.  I was in a funk and nothing seemed to be able to pull me out of it. 
Tonight, while cooking supper, I got out my box of potatoes that I had just dug up from the garden and i pulled out this potato.  It was so cute and silly that I couldn't help but laugh.  Instantly, all of the "funk" that I had been feeling was gone.  For the first time in at least a week I had a real smile on my face and all the weight I had been carrying on my shoulders seemed to just lift away.  It seems silly I know, but I tend to find humor in silly stupid things like this little potato with a pudgey nose and cute little grin.
Then I realized how awesome my God is.  He knew last spring what an awful week I would have.  He knew what it was going to take to make me smile.  He knew I was going to make chicken and noodles with  mashed potatoes and that I would use the potatoes that I grew from my garden.  He knew I would notice and take such delight in seeing that silly face on a potato.  God knew!  That just astounds me, that He cares about me so much that He would "draw" this face just to make me laugh.  The very though of it brings tears to my eyes because for probably the very first time in my life I realize just how much He cares for me.  It blows my mind!  This is the same one who holds every tear I have cried in His hands because I am so precious to Him.  This is the same one who in an instant can literally pick up a mountain and move it if He wanted to.  He is so powerful, yet so gentle that He can glance my way and give me a silly face just like I do for my own kids when they are sad.  wow!